Successfully distracted myself for 4 hours away from projects that I need to do in order to enjoy the rest of my weekend.
Creating distractions tend to stem from a variety of things, and from what I have recollected from my past, I know that I distract myself day to day because overall I’m afraid of what I can’t see. I’m afraid of my future failures, but what I’m even more afraid of is my future successes. How will I over come them when they happen? Why do I feel the need to distract myself for hours upon hours when I have ‘enough time’ to finish a project that I should do so that I may be able to enjoy the rest of my weekend?
Why am I always so afraid?
Well, it’s because I know that I’m going to do something unimaginable. Something great. Something that is worthy of those who have been a part of my life.
And in essence, I shouldn’t be afraid.
I should just shower, close my eyes, and get ready.
Get ready to face my future failures and successes.
I need to open my eyes, smile, and get ready for my future present.
(I need to go get ready for Matthew’s Birthday party, and it looks like I’m not sleeping tonight until I finish my projects so I can go to Clarivel’s graduation and drive to Riverside to watch Caleb as a drill commander.)
Eyes are wonderful. They give sight to us and let us enjoy the world around us. But at night, as soon as we turn off the lights, all we see is darkness. Our eyes want us to switch the lights back on; to stay in our comfort zone. But if we rely on light so much and fear the dark at night, we never allow our eyes to adjust to the darkness and that means that we can only enjoy our little lit world. If we step out of our home and let our eyes adjust to the darkness during the middle of the night, we’ll be able to enjoy other people’s worlds, stars, and zodiac signs in the skies above us. Why live only on this world to rely on what we know, when there’s so much more to see? We don’t have to understand everything about the stars. All we can do is appreciate their presence in our life, and appreciate life without too much over thinking. Over thinking gives purpose, though. And thankfulness makes it worth living.